‘The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.’
-F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
It’s spring on the outside… But my heart is in the middle of winter.
-Slam Dunk~Nobutaka Nishizawa (1993)
‘Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there’s no room for the present at all.’
In the end there doesn’t have to be anyone who understands you. There just have to be someone who wants to.’
Stars cannot shine without darkness
I could be your perfect disaster and you could be my ever after
You were looking for a new love, I was looking for an eternal one.
Sometimes, I suppose I am happy. Like when I am with my friends, throwing my head back and covering my mouth as I shake with laughter at a joke someone just made. But then my day turns to night and my carefree grin turns into an unexplainable sadness, etched on my face like a tattoo and I lay in bed, thinking about all the things I wish I could say— all the things I’m too afraid to admit, even with only pen and paper and mind. It’s night like these when I realize: I am happy and sad, outgoing and shy, rambunctious and quiet. But mostly, I am just empty.
‘Do not tell everyone your story. You will only end up feeling more rejected. People cannot give you what you long for in your heart. The more you expect from people’s response to your experience of abandonment, the more you will feel exposed to ridicule.’
-Henri J.M. Nouwen